Sushin-sen

I’m sure everyone has a fascination with the conundrum that is North Korea…

Some surreal quotes from this long, but extremely worthwhile, article detailing a chef’s adventures in North Korea:

Its staff of 200 approved every element of Kim’s diet. Each grain of Kim’s rice was hand-inspected for chips and cracks—only perfectly shaped rice, grown in North Korea, was approved. […] All were impressed when Fujimoto served the freshest meal of all: still-living fish he’d fillet alive by cutting around the organs—a skill he’d learned while working at Japan’s Tsukiji fish market.


As a wedding prank, Kim Jong-il had the unconscious Fujimoto’s pubic hair shaved off.


A month after the wedding, Fujimoto and Jong-yo snuck off to meet her family. Her relative success as a singer had not bettered their circumstances. Fujimoto discovered her family of six living in a single room. Four of them would later die of asphyxiation when, on a cold night without heat, they brought a bucket of hot coals into their room for warmth.


 And every time he asked me to kiss his face, he always said to me, If you betray me, you will… Then he would go silent and make a gesture of a knife going into my stomach.”


He remained on Kim’s good side, with the occasional lapse. He once failed to clean his room at a guesthouse, and Kim decided to make an example of him by taking away his kitchen. For six months, Fujimoto was forced to prepare sushi in a gymnasium.


As the famine became devastating, Kim Jong-il had the former agricultural minister’s body exhumed from the Patriots’ Cemetery and subjected to a posthumous execution by firing squad.


I said, “But they were sent to the coal mine, your wife and children, to be re-educated.”

Fujimoto seemed untroubled by this. He said he’d done all that he could. Right away, he started writing letters of apology to Kim Jong-il.

“And it worked,” he said. “After six years, they were freed.”

The Question of Why

Philippe Petit Walks Over Jerusalem

NPR’s TED Radio Hour latest podcast was titled “To The Edge” where adventurers discussed, amongst other topics, why they did what they did. One wanted to escape the mundane life of a management consultant. Philippe Petit wanted it for the beauty. The most famous answer is the quintessential “because it is there.”

There are actually thousands of adventurers among us who make that aphorism their motto. They eat, drink, sleep at places we think cannot be the mark of a swashbuckler though, and scale great obstacles we cannot see. Those people are the researchers who teeter at the edge of human knowledge.

To do research is to literally step off the edge of what humanity knows, and try to expand that swath just a tiny bit so that someone can stand on where there use to be nothing. For most of them in science, they might see their work used by a doctor at some point, or become an intricate cog in the unifying proof of everything. Their goals might be similar to my own, in bettering the world to a visible extent.

On the other hand, those who toil in philosophy, history or language, I never can fully understand why do they do it? Maybe they do it simply for the beauty (though as a mathematician, I’m biased that mathematics is the most beautiful). The best reason reason that I have construed is simply “because it is there”; that knowledge for the sake of knowledge is innately useful.

And I find that beautiful too.

The End Times

I agree the world is shitty right now. There are civil strifes in Syria, ISIS in Iraq and Putin is flexing the unused Russian muscles. It is not the end times though.

It seems ridiculous that more than almost HALF of Americans said that recent natural disasters are the results of the apocalypse rather than climate change according to a study by PRRI. Thankfully, a good 60

This doesn’t seem to be a fluke either. I took a look at their methodology, and it seems to be fine from a cursoury glance. They sampled some 3000 people via a phone survey with a seemingly good distribution of people. The Jewish people are overrepresented slightly, but that’s a small perturbation.

What this means is that science holds such little sway in the American public that explanations from Revelations outweighs what scientists has to say. The thousands of years of technological advances means almost nothing to half of the public, even as their lives are better than ever. This is absolutely terrifying to me.

You know what else is terrifying? Applying to graduate school and hoping I get in somewhere.

The One Who Got Away

It’s been quite awhile since I posted. Laziness and business both contributed to my dearth of content. On the other hand, there’s still a lot of stuff I want to get off my chest at times, so here’s one of them.


So how intercountry (intra?) trains work in Europe is that you can reserve a seat, and you have the right to eject the person who’s sitting on your seat by the time you get on. At Prague, I got on the train and went to my compartment. Turns out some lady was sitting in my seat (you probably know where this is going…). I didn’t want to be a dick and so I sat in a non-reserved seat of the compartment.

As the train went on, she started to pull out random books, read a while, then proceeded to write in a Moleskin notebook. Around an hour plus before I reached Budapest, I asked whether she was a writer. This led to us conversing for the rest of the way about stuff from politics, math, League of Legends, education, sociology, Kant, feminism and so much more. Turns out she’s a German, senior in college, going to Budapest for 2 weeks to volunteer at a conference….

But guess what. The one thing I didn’t ask for was her name nor email.

I wasn’t even interested in romance, I just felt a potential great friend is gone. A lot of the people I meet while travelling are quite interesting, and I would love to be friends with all of them. But the thing is, neither Christine from Philly or Bridget from Portland elicited a better conversation than this mystery woman.

Well, if you’re reading this and know a German brunette who goes to uni in Luneburg majoring in cultural studies, and is doing work in Budapest, email me.

Hungary

Flight

I left Tallahassee at 11am on Friday.

I got to Budapest at 12am on Sunday.

Somehow, I managed to spend $60 in London within a span of 4 hours.

Virgin Mobile worked well enough for me to Skype Alex in Miami.

Okay, so here’s what happened. My flight in Miami had a 8 hours layover, and a overnighter to Heathrow followed. As soon as that happened, I wanted to spend some of the 10 hours layover in London. When I finally landed in Budapest, it was 11:30PM local time. I didn’t get to my apartment till 2AM on Sunday. Still, nothing terrible happened and quite successful.

First Impressions

Budapest comes from a distinctively communist root. The street which my apartment is on just seems so… bland and dangerous at the same time. If one was to plop it down in Soviet Russia 40 years ago, it’ll fit right in.

The insides is great though, with a fantastic, guitar-playing landlord. Did I mention that everything is so cheap here? The prices are just ridiculously in favor of United States citizens.

Water and restrooms are not as popular as in the States. Water fountains are a foreign concept and bottled water is the way to go. Furthermore, public restrooms are almost invisible or guarded by an attendedant who expects a tip.

Classes

They’re going fine. I’m just really rusty with pure math though…

Story of a Woman

Let me tell you a story of a woman in Washington DC.

This woman is a well-respected citizen within the community, volunteering at many PTO events during the weekdays. She probably also has a few kids and grandkids, but I never did ask. On weekends, she goes and plays tennis to keep up her ever-aging body in shape.

On this particular day, her husband surprised her with tickets to the last day of the Citi Open! Excited as she was, the thought of spending some 4 hours in the sun bothered her so she brought her favorite wide-rimmed hat; a wise idea by all standards.

What she should’ve bought was a helmet though. Because this lady got nailed in the face by a ball thrown by a spectator which bounced in all the correct manners into her face.

The audience got a good laugh.

 

Lover Come Back

I went to the Screen on the Green with Sean Monday, and it turned out to be a great time. An old 1961 romantic-comedy called Lover Come Back was being screened.

It was a refreshing relief from the modern flamboyant films with either intricate plots that dances around drama or seemingly mindless violence accented by a few touching moments. Hell, even the language was naively fresh; the lack of any swear words seemed so different now.

Albeit very generic, the film contained some genuinely funny moments. Either that, or the rambunctious group sitting by us altered my perception of the jokes which didn’t rely on sheer stupidity to work. Dare I say that it’s even a relatively “smart” comedy?

The plot in the end was anything but smart though. As one should suspect, the story has a happy ending. This wouldn’t be a movie I would show anyone in my house, but for an outdoor screening with a crowd.

Quick note: check the weather and bring a jacket, and bottle to drink from! Open container laws suck.

Quit

Well, this past month has been a doozy. From finishing up my semester, to having a personal crisis; I haven’t been able to document much of my thoughts at all.

As the semester came to a close, mom told me that my grandma had a form of cancer. We didn’t know how serious the cancer was, or what stage it was in. All we knew was that it was definitely not benign. This caused a rush of emotions that I didn’t know how to respond to or talk to others about.

Inability to discuss what I felt during those 4-5 days led me to cast a doubt on myself. “What is wrong with me” was asked many, many times with no response from my usually egotistical self. It even spilled over to a game of League of Legends. For some odd reason, I just bursted out in tears after losing a game that we should have won; I still don’t understand why I would cry over such a trivial matter as a video game.

Around that time, I had plenty of projects to work on. The most interesting was probably the animation-esque class I was doing. Jane and I decided to implement the Fattal paper on target-driven smoke animation. For some reason, I turned into a total douchebag by the end of the project. I dictated what should be done in an extremely condescending way, while shooting down all her ideas. Thankfully she was kind enough to stick with me all the way through.

On the front of my research and parallel computing though, it went pretty poorly near the end. I ran into quite a few problems which I’ll have to resolve throughout the summer. There is a large hope that a paper will arise out of this with enough work.

In terms of logistical issues in my life, moving out was a bitch. The kitchen was almost more dirty than Detroit, and my clothes was incredibly hard to sort through. “Should I send this back home… or to DC?” In the end, I finally packed everything and sorted everything out between the times when I was not on campus for senior week.

Speaking of senior week, it was extremely sad seeing the world change. It seems that I while I don’t love the status-quo, I like it more compared to the increasingly faster progression of time. In only a year time, I will be graduating from Cornell.

This made me wish I had done more social stuff this year. Besides Jane, there was literally no one I got particularly close this year. It’s almost like a “lost year” in terms of social development (which I desperately need). I am currently reading through the Carnegie book hoping that it’ll help eventually…

My first day today was great. Great food. Friendly people. Seemingly interesting project. I have high hopes for this summer, and I intend to reach them. The problem seems that I’ll be quite busy after work too. From the research with Bindel to my undying faith that I’ll be the next Penn and Teller, I’ll be busy in the night.

I guess the question I’m faced with now is at what point do I call it quits?

Feelings

I have trouble expressing feelings.

What do I do when my mom tells me that her mother has a form of bladder cancer? I was too shocked even to ask about how far along the stage it was; I just “smiled and nodded.

Maybe this is part of growing up.

Dirty Little Secret

The worst math grade I’ve ever gotten was a “B.” Not even a “B+”, it’s just a plain old “B.”

It happened many years ago at a school called Florida State University, where I was taking numerical linear algebra. Somehow, I completely fluked the final.

Looking back, this was almost expected. I didn’t start studying until 3 hours before the exam. I recall that I got over 2 standard deviations above the mean on the first two exams and though I can just depend on the average. Little did I know that this final was more than the previous 2 exams combined…

Whelp, that’s my dirty little secret.